Week 20 update

Merry Christmas everyone!! Life has been good recently!! We are currently visiting my family in California and loving it! My belly is getting bigger everyday! I have got to see a lot of my sister who is about 35 weeks pregnant and she is also having a  girl! I love getting to feel her baby move around and kick! I'm so excited to meet her. My brother Sam was baptized two weeks ago and then last weekend my mom and I threw Jessica a baby shower and this weekend we went to her house at the coast for a baby shower her friend threw her, so things have been crazy, but really a lot of fun! As much as I love being here I am excited to go back to Rexburg in a few weeks. I've missed my friends and my bed haha Robbie is also excited to start his last semester of classes. He has some really fun classes and some hard classes, but he is ready for the challenge!!

How far along: 20 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain: Up about 5 lbs

Stretch marks?  None yet

Sleep: somedays I sleep great others I wake up 12 times. It just depends.

Best moment this week: Finally recognizing what it feels like when the baby moves! She's been moving, I just realized it now haha it feel amazing!

Miss anything: nope, I finally got some fully cooked sushi and it was delish!

Movement: I have finally felt her move, and not a whole lot. It has really been cool. Robbie is super jealous that he can't feel it :)

Food cravings: I have basically just been wanting sweets and spicy foods!

Anything making you sick? Not really, things have been great!

Gender: girl!!! We're so excited!! 

Labor signs: none

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: I've been super happy recently! Especially since I'm half way! Woo hoo! Only 20 weeks left and I'll have my little girl in my arms!

Gender Reveal!!

GUESS WHAT WE'RE HAVING?!?!?!!

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know it's hard to tell from the pictures, but it is in fact a girl! We are so so so excited for our little girl!! I alrerady went shopping and bought her some adorable outfits!! This is where the fun begins!! Picking out clothes, decorating the nursery, buying cute headbands and so much more!!

Here are some pictures from the ultrasound:

Week 18 Update

How far along: 18 weeks 4 days

Total weight gain: Turns out my parents don't own a scale haha so I probably won't be tracking my weight for a while.

Stretch marks?  None yet

Sleep: I have not been sleeping well. Most nights I wake up 2 or 3 times because I'm uncomfortable or I get a leg cramp or to use the bathroom. 

Best moment this week: Finding out the gender and going shopping for the baby!!

Miss anything: nope, not really. I've actually really been enjoying my second trimester and I'm loving being pregnant right now!

Movement: I'm pretty sure I felt the baby move a couple of times!! Usually in the afternoon when I sit down because I'm tired. It doesn't feel like there is something in there though, it just feels like I'm nervous/upset stomach/gas. 

Food cravings: I'm not really craving anything special right now. Basically, I'm just hungry ALL. THE. TIME.

Anything making you sick? Coughing or brushing my teeth still makes me gag and occasionally toss my cookies....like I did this week in the parking lot of Panera Bread after getting a seed of a lemon stuck in my throat...yeah that sucked. Also, anything that is kind of gross makes me sick to my stomach. Apparently, I'm wimpy now...

Gender: On the 2nd, I had an appointment at Peek-A-Baby in Fresno to see our little baby and my parents and brothers were able to come to my gender scan. It was so fun! The baby was being very shy, it had it's legs crossed and the umbilical cord between it's legs (notice how I'm not telling your the gender). Finally after lots of me moving and turn my hips we finally got the right view to see the baby's goods ;-) Watch for our announcement to come soon!

Labor signs: none

Symptoms: leg cramps, hungry all the time, some back pain that's about it.

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Since I saw my baby, I've been a lot happier and not so moody. I've just been really worried. I don't know if I've ever been this happy in my entire life. I just feel like right now everything is perfect! I am so blessed and I am so grateful!

Looking forward to: Our family and gender announcement pictures tomorrow! Sam's baptism tomorrow! Getting bigger and looking a little more pregnant. 

Week 16 update

So this week I have slacked a little. I don't have a picture. I figured since I will be 17 weeks in 2 days I will just wait u ntil then for my next bump picture. I'm just doing a quick update of what my week was like.

How far along: 16 weeks 5 days

Total weight gain:  I'm still down a half a pound from my pre-pregnancy weight. My weight has been fluctuating back and forth 2 pounds so we'll see when it finally sticks.

Stretch marks? none yet 

Sleep: I am still sleeping quite well. However, I can't sleep on my back anymore and I wake up at least once to go the bathroom. Overall not bad.

Best moment this week: Robbie younger brother Tyler got married this week to his new wife Ashley. They are so adorable and their wedding was beautiful! We were so lucky to be there to see them be sealed in the Boise, Idaho temple!! I am so happy for them and their new life together! It really takes me back to when Robbie and I were married more than 2.5 years ago!

Miss anything: I am so missing sushi :(

Movement: I think I may have felt something the other day, but I don't know really...we'll see if I feel it again. I just want to feel this baby already, I know its early, most first time moms don't feel the baby until 18 weeks, so i'm trying to relax.

Food cravings: Salad, oranges, greek olives, cranberry everything, stuffing (good thing this week is thanksgiving!), Cherry Slushi from the movies haha, 

Anything making you sick? nothing special, just random weird smells, and not eating 

Gender: We will know soon!!

Labor signs: none yet

Symptoms: Nausea is back...yay, back pain, but that could be from the way I sleep, my belly is growing..sometimes of the day I actually look pregnant instead of just fat, pregnancy brain is setting in...seriously I think I've gone crazy haha, I am still breaking out..no glowy skin here

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Again I've been moody, but a different kind of moody this week. I have been really worrying about my little baby and it has really started to hit me that my life is going to change forever. Its almost like it has started to hit me that I'm pregnant and I'm going to be a mother and for the rest of my life I am going to be worried about this baby. It hit me a couple of days ago that this baby will be here in less than 6 monthes and we are not even a little ready! I am starting to be really scared for the future! Don't get me wrong I love this baby so much and want it more than anything, but I am scared out of my mind to be in charge and responsible for someone else's life!! I am really starting to sound like a mom and that freaks me out!

Looking forward to: Seeing our little baby in less than a week!!!!!! At which time we will fing out gender!!!!!!! Then I can stop calling it an it haha and I can buy some cute little clothes!!!!! 

This week the baby is the size of an avacado and/or the size of my palm. 4.6 in long and on average weighs about 3.5 oz. The baby has also started to hear!! Look at that baby grow ;-) 

Week 15 Bump Update

How far along: 15 weeks 4 days

Total weight gain:  1lb which is pretty good since I lost 3 lbs when I was sick!

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: no complaints unless I sleep on my back.

Best moment this week: noting exciting happened with the baby this week, but last Monday Robbie brother came home from his mission! It's been so great to see him!

Miss anything: being able to skip breakfast 

Movement: nothing yet, but I'm paying really close attention!

Food cravings: lasagna, pickles, dark soda (mostly diet coke and dr pepper), oranges, chocolate cake, salad

Anything making you sick? Eating too much or not enough haha, brushing my teeth, riding in the car

Gender: lately I've been hoping for a girl. I was n the baby section at target and I just love all the adorable dresses they have for baby girls!! Although they do have cute clothes of boys too lol

Labor signs: nope

Symptoms: I've started to feel really good the past few weeks. 

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody! I've got mood swing like crazy haha

Looking forward to: Feeling some movement! Also we get to find out the gender on December 2nd!!

Expecting

So we've got some great news!! If you haven't heard yet...I'm pregnant!!
We are so excited to start a family!! Today I am 14 weeks, due May 8, 2014. I am already in my second trimester...I can't believe I am already 1/3 through my pregnancy!!

I have had 2 ultrasounds already, check it out:

This ultrasound was at 11 weeks

And this one was at 7 weeks

That's all for now. I do plan on doing regular updates on my pregnancy and on our day to day lives!!

14 weeks

I am now 14 weeks with my first baby! We are so excited!! I have decided that I want to keep track of things during my pregnancy and I will be using my blog to do so.....so if your interested you can read it too!

I'm getting off to a late start, but better later than never.....

How far along: 14 weeks

Total weight gain: 1.5lbs

Stretch marks? None yet, but I haven't really grown much yet. If anyone knows of an anti-stretch mark treatment they like, let me know!

Sleep: I'm actually sleeping really well. I rarely wake up in the middle of the night to pee anymore. I've heard that I get to enjoy that for like a week haha

Best moment this week: I had my first prenatal massage...oh that was awesome haha also Robbie celebrated his 25th birthday this week!!! Woo hoo!!

Miss anything: I am dying for some sushi and when I made Robbie's cake I really wanted to lick the batter off the spoon :( I miss my raw food haha

Movement: No. I have been paying close attention because I've heard that sometimes you can feel it this early...someone said to lay on your stomach, well its not working haha I am dying to feel my baby move lol

Food cravings: Anything Italian...I giant bowl of spaghetti and meatballs sounds FANTASTIC!! Its the only way I will touch meat with a 10 foot pole! Also last night I had a pickle and I didn't realize how awesome they were...so I just kept eating them haha

Anything making you sick? Apparently walking into Paradise Bakery haha I went there for lunch with Robbie and as soon as I walked in I had to go stright the bathroom to puke...I feel bad for the lady in the stall next to me...sorry

Gender: Basically everyone thinks its a boy. Robbie's had 2 dreams about it being a boy. Me? I don't really care. Girl names are kind of easier for us. We just made our appointment for December 2nd to find out the gender!!!

Labor signs: Nope.

Symptoms: I've had all the normal sympotoms..but now things seems to be calming down, finally! I feel pretty good except for the occasional sickness. Also I seem to have some hip pain and also some general aching.

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? on.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, but I've always been moody ;-)

Looking forward to: Doing things again!

Exciting Things

Recently, there have been a lot of downs in our lives, but we are trying to look to the bright side and see what good comes out of this sad time. For me this has been something that has not been easy. I am just starting to see through the storms so to speak. Writing about my pain on this blog and talking with friends has been quite healing.

We actually have some exciting times coming up! First, I am graduating from college with my Bachelors degree in University Studies this month!! In fact I have a count down! Check it out!

I can't believe there is only 21 days left! I was actually going through what I have left until the end of the semester homework and project wise and there is very little left, it is really exciting!!

Second, my whole family is coming up here for my graduation! We haven't had both sides of the family together since our wedding two years ago! It will be so much fun to see everyone! I have such wonderful people in my life and I am so happy that everyone is coming to see me graduate! I feel so blessed!

Third, Robbie's brother D'angelo is getting married to an awesome girl named Alex on August 3rd! We are so excited for them! It really takes me back to our wedding!

Fourth, we're going to Hawaii!!!! Woo!! So excited for a proper vacation!!! I also have a count down for this one haha

Hawaii is going to be so amazing! We will be celebrating my father-in-law's 50th birthday! He definitely knows how to throw himself quite the party ;-) So excited!

After we get home from Hawaii we will be headed back to Idaho, but not back to school. Robbie will be doing an internship at his Grandpa's cattle ranch. Robbie has made a big career change and decided not to apply for medical school. Crazy right?! So we (well, Robbie will do the hard part haha) will be spending the end of the harvest and fall season with them and get everything ready for the winter and to move the cows to California. Then we will come back up here to Rexburg for the Winter semester (January-April). Then, Robbie will graduate with his bachelors degree in Microbiology! Woo! Go Robbie! Then we will head back to the Ranch and work there for awhile. That's all the plan we have for now haha. We are very excited for the possibilities and the new opportunities that have opened themselves up to us! Just goes to show that we are not in control of our lives and the Lord is! Really, though He does a MUCH better job than I could ever do, His plan is always the best one!

So grateful for all the amazing angels in our lives. People have really been angels in our lives the past few months and I have never been so grateful for the things I have. I am trying to understand the Lord's plan for me and I am trying to do what He wants me to do. One of wisest people I know (Robbie) has taught me to be positive and happy with what you have been given! Nothing is mine, they are all gifts from the Lord even my time and I am so grateful!

Thanks for listening to my ramblings and letting me vent. I hope I can help someone with the things I have been through some day. Love you all!!

Get Crafty!!

LOOK AT WHAT I MADE!!

Not the best picture, but I am so proud! I can do a quick tutorial if you want! Let me know!  P.s this looks awesome in my house ;-)

Life Really Sucks Sometimes

If you haven't heard yet, we recently lost our sweet new puppy. She died this morning from injuries after being hit by a car. This has been really hard for us. She was only 8 weeks old and was so sweet. We buried her and said a few words. It was hard to see her in so much pain. She had quite a few broken ribs and extensive damage to her lungs, damage that could be fixed. We love her and will miss her greatly. We were so blessed to have her as part of our family for a short time. Its just really sad.

Meet Mae!

Yes! We got a puppy! Isn't she adorable?! We love her! She is the sweetest little thing you've ever met! I will talk about how we got her another time because I need to get to class! But here are some more cute pictures of her! She has grown so much in the past week we've had her!!

Hard Topics

So it's been awhile since my last post. We have had a lot going on in our family lately.

For those of you who don't know I had a miscarriage a little over a month ago. We were so excited to finally be expecting. We had been waiting until the time was right. I was about 13 weeks pregnant when we received the news that I had lost the baby. There were a lot of health and other kinds of complications that made these difficult during those first few weeks. I had what they call an incomplete molar pregnancy. I have been going in for weekly blood draws while the doctors monitor me and hopefully in a few weeks I will only have to do this monthly. They have told us we will probably have to wait three to six months before trying to conceive again.

I am a writer, its what I do, I'm good with words, but there are no words for what we have been through. I know many of women have been through this same thing and many families have experienced much worse, but I still wonder why this had to happen to our family. I don't really know what to say except that I am sad and disappointed.

I had a very special experience that I would like to share. When I was about 11 weeks pregnant I went in to see my doctor for my 12 week appointment. I was leaving town and would be gone for over a week so I scheduled my appointment early. This is the appointment that the doctor will try to hear your baby's heartbeat on a Doppler. My doctor tried for about 15 minutes with no luck to find a heartbeat. He then offered me an ultrasound because he knew that many women would become very worried that something was wrong. This was right in the middle of finals and I knew we didn't have time. Robbie and I both had classes in less than 30 minutes and I was leaving the next morning to go out of town. I told him that didn't have time and that I didn't want to do it without my husband. I then had this overwhelming feeling that everything was ok, that my baby was fine and I need not worry. Seems unfair, right? That what I thought right after I found out that I lost the baby two weeks later. I had lost my baby around 8 weeks and there were never any physical signs. It took a little time before I realized that I feeling I had received that day in the doctor's office was a gift. I was not lied to that day, but comforted and prepared for a time of grief that was coming up shortly. My baby is alright, he or she never had to come to this world and while I don't understand everything I know this baby is in heaven with our Heavenly Father. Everything is ok, life continues on and we can carry on with that grief and the love for that child that could have been.

I know many people think that at 8 weeks when my baby passed that he or she wasn't even alive yet. I am here telling you that that baby was, in fact, a baby and much more than an embryo. There was a feeling of life and I felt different. It was not just hormones, but it was the feeling of being close to heaven. I'm sure that many women who have had a child could explain this to you, even in those early weeks.

I'm sorry if this post made you feel uncomfortable or if you don't agree with the things I have said, but this is part of my healing process and, frankly, you don't have to read this. This is my safe, personal space. You are welcome to leave comments, but please only kind and supportive ones. This is not the time for political discussions. Please only leave uplifting comments.

I also want to thank all of the amazing people in my life who have helped Robbie and I. We appreciated all the great dinners and flowers and sweet words of comfort. We are truly blessed with some amazing friends and family. We love you all!

Catching Up

Yes, Its been awhile...sorry! Quick catch up. The semester will be over in three weeks, things are staring to get crazy! Our computers both broke about three weeks ago..so I have a real excuse for not blogging. I am super excited to go home on Apirl 11th after the semester ends!! Robbie will be staying here :( to study for the MCAT which he takes in Boise on April 27th. Scary and exciting all at the same time!!

 Robbie's brother D'Angelo got engaged last month to his girlfriend Alex!! I am so excited for them!! It has been taking me back to when Robbie and I got married almost two years ago! It is all a great adventure and they will love it!! They are getting married on August 3rd in Mesa, Arizona, we are so excited!

I recently signed up for my last semester of classes!!! I cannot believe I am graduating in July!! It really is exciting and awesome! I will have my bachelor's degree in University Studies with focuses in English, Culinary Arts, and Home & Family. This degree was a lot of fun and I have learned a lot! I can't wait for my next chapter!! I will be graduating on July 23rd!!


Wow! A lot has happened recently! I didn't even realize it!! More to come soon....I promise, for real! We won't be getting our new computer for at least 3 more weeks according to the online tracking, but I will find a way!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Happy New Year everyone!!

Yeah I know...its a little late, it always is. Today's post is going to be a little short on the account that have some homework to get done. Robbie and I are back in school... hooray :) Since school has started all I can think about is July 23rd the day I graduate, despite the fact that I have great classes. So I have decided to start a count down...there are 181 days until I graduate from college!! Woo! (also about 6 months)


In other news Robbie and I are trying to shed some extra poundage and really be healthier. So we are kind of getting a slow start to this so if anyone has any suggestions they would be greatly appreciated. How you shed your unwanted 10-20 lbs or anything you know that works! Please!


So we have some goals for the New Year, but I don't even know where they are...oops. I should probably know them by heart right? haha Well Robbie's better at this sort of thing than I am... However I have a feeling that 2013 is going to be the best year yet!



Well that's what's going on at the Bagley's house...Hope everyone has a great short week!!